You may have read articles about some of the trials I’ve experienced in life, from abuse, life threatening disease, alienation, loss, and so on… This happened from childhood and really hasn’t stopped, and in most cases it doesn’t end, what ends is the fear, worry, and suffering that comes along with trials and tribulation. Your faith sees you through all of these circumstances and like Daniel in the Lion’s den, or the three in the furnace you won’t be hurt by your circumstances. We must endure until the end and we will overcome. Remember we have never been promised a simple and trouble free life but we have been promised victory and joy. There are many things that hurt us in our lives, the greatest of all is fear.

However, what always bothered me quite a bit was what other people thought of me. How they treated me weighed on me so heavy. Their cutting words, rumors, lies, can cut deeper than any knife, and hurt worse than any of my many visits to the hospital over the years.

And foolishly, when I would be attacked or abused in any way, I would replay the events, repeatedly, and torture myself all over again with things that no longer existed. If I repaid hate with hate I would also accuse myself, condemn myself, I would question if what they had said about me was true. I would cry because I didn’t understand why they would hurt me so. I would wonder why so many seemed to hate me for no good reason at all… Then I would even condemn myself for standing up for myself when I KNEW I was right, because the outcome always seemed to turn out terribly wrong for me. Mainly, because I would always feel bad after my angry words were heard.


(That was my sin, for which there was and is no forgiveness.)

The ACCUSER, the FATHER OF ALL LIES, the DEVIL (MY Carnal egotistical mind – and more, which you will learn later) would condemn everything from what I had done right, to what I had done wrong in the past. I couldn’t shake my past pain. I carried around this pain day and night. The man who was given such great revelation, the man who writes the inspiring words, this man was DEAD IN HIS TRESPASSES, living in the PAST and not the present, as he so easily wrote about how we all should.


Where was the promise of peace, joy, and righteousness? Since childhood I sought the TRUTH, but all I found was revelation that helped others, and pain that hurt me over and over, again. (Because I would remind myself of this hurt daily.)

But “Church” = “Called out of Babylon Ones” that has all changed. And I believe many of you, if you haven’t already experienced being BORN AGAIN (Because this is what I am talking about) will soon be BORN AGAIN INDEED, if the many words of this essay is taken to heart and understood.

Many have taught if you say a couple of words, accept Jesus in your life, heart, whatever, thenpoof your BORN AGAIN. But my friends this is a shadow, it is a clever trap and lie. To keep you relying on what you have DONE instead of what you DO.

This is why so many people in RELIGION ask the question. “Are you SAVED?” – PAST TENSE… Existing in something they had done, as opposed to what they do. This is a great lie.

For those Mothers out there, you know you don’t get pregnant and whamo you have a child. It is a process, it takes time, and there is great patience, excitement, pain, sadness, and other emotions that come before that child is born. And before that child is finally BORN, there is SUFFERING like that MOTHER HAS NEVER KNOWN.

For me this has all come to it’s head recently. I have lost my immediate family over their issues and my past issues (which I no longer cling to) and remain here ready for them to return. I had others calling me an abuser, a brain washer, David Koresh and spreading terrible lies about my wife and I around town. Then of course, there was the financial worry, and a mountain of other daily things we all go through.

But my prayer to God was I can deal with everything, because my relationship with my wife was always so good and I had a great job.

Ah, there’s the heel that needed to be snapped 🙂 So, I begged God, please, PLEASE don’t let there be issues with business. I don’t know if I could handle that with everything else going on right now.

Well a couple of weeks ago, I went from being called my companies greatest asset to someone who was being portrayed as high maintenance, a problem, and this new supervisor even leveled threats that I might lose my job, if didn’t respect their authority and get in line. The problem was, I had done nothing wrong, it was one person who possibly felt threatened by me, accused me of lying and when I set the record straight it only threatened my job security more (In my mind at least).

Needless to say, this was the last straw for me emotionally… I am purposely leaving out what has happened in my life to protect the guilty LOL, but it has been a hard one since childhood to a couple of days ago, but praise God now I know, NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT HAS JUST BEEN REVEALED IN and TO ME!

So I immediately went into a deep depression about my job. My family depends on it, “what would I do?” I love my job, I love reaching people through the written word. I had done so many great things, won awards, but all of it could be forgotten if one was to lie, manipulate my good name. Now I don’t want to say that is what was done, I believe there was miscommunication and I believe I was meant to learn some great things through the process. My whole problem has always been about caring what others think. I have a spot less reputation and that was being threatened for no good reason. (That I was aware of) But it was meant for my good.

Those people that hurt us, aren’t bad people, they really don’t know what they are doing. And sometimes we just should sit back and not feel the need to stand up for ourselves, do the work, take whatever comes your way and be done, but I stood up and it caused me great pain and worry. Which of course was all self imposed. Its amazing how we let fear rule us, instead of hope.

BUT “CHURCH” = (Those called out of their circumstances), it was NOT this person’s fault. This was God’s handy work, as are all things in our lives.

Amos 3:6
Shall a trumpet be blown in the city, and the people not be afraid? shall there be evil in a city, and the LORD hath not done it?

A TRUMPET is an instrument that turns a man’s BREATH TO VIBRATION, Much like how we speak. But a TRUMPET is a SIGN that something is to come. Trumpet are HERALDS of sorts. Used to announce the arrival of KINGS, QUEENS, ROYALTY, etc… TRUMPETS ANNOUNCE A COMING (remember that next time you read scripture and wonder why you see Trumpets everywhere) – This TRUMPET in the above scripture announces the TROUBLE that will come upon us. And it was LOUD in my ears.

2 Corinthians 4:17
For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;

But we must remember these things are being done FOR US not TO US.

Now that doesn’t mean we need to continue to stick around to be abused, but these situations in our lives are PRESSURES that are CLOSING IN on us to FORM SOMETHING PRECIOUS WITHIN US. oUR PRESENT TROUBLE is meant to SET US FREE.

The problem is there is a LARGE STONE that needs to be rolled away from our lives so we can be. You see, the main thing that keeps us from FREEDOM is that we care so much for the outside world, and what people think about us, that we continue to abuse ourselves with the PAST.

Many want OTHERS TO LOVE THEM, as opposed to realizing this LINE OF THINKING is the very thing keeping THEM in HELL. (the prison of our negative emotions) – for that is what HELL IS. I don’t care what every Priest, Pastor, or Religious leader says… HELL is IN OUR MIND, and MOST OF US ARE IN IT. I was in it. And there is only ONE WAY OUT and that is to be BORN AGAIN. (To RENEW OUR THINKING)

John 3:3
Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.


Romans 14:17
For the kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost.

I don’t care what line of pig slop you have been fed. The Kingdom of God is not some place far beyond the milky way. The Kingdom (Reign) of God (Spirit and Truth) is the PEACE, JOY, AND RIGHTEOUSNESS WE CRAVE. And it is ONLY found WITHIN US.

So, there is only ONE way out of the HELL we are in right now, and that is to THINK differently… You need to understand that scripture is primarily written allegorically. Now, that doesn’t mean things didn’t literally happen. As you’ll see in this paper, things literally happened in my life, that were ALLEGORIES for me to LEARN FROM. And in scripture, Thoughts are compared to SEEDS. A corruptible seed is a thought based on a LIE or is a LIE, and incorruptible seed is a THOUGHT that is TRUTH.

When you know the TRUTH and WALK IN IT you will be free indeed. “The Truth will set you free, and you shall know the Truth.” that’s the good news, we all will eventually…

1 Peter 1:23
Be born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which liveth and abideth for ever.

So, back to my story. Like every pregnancy there will come a day when your LABOR will be over and your child delivered. That day for me has come… I was so down, praying, “Lord what am I to learn from all of this?” “When am I going to GET IT?” “When will I stop caring what others think?” “When will I know as I am known?” “When will I be free?”

First illness, abuse, family, extended family, then friends, NOW WORK?

Everyone seemed to be turning against me. I felt so lost. I kept coming across passages about Daniel being delivered from the Lion’s den, I kept reading things about the temple finally being cleansed, but I wasn’t relating any of this to my life. My life felt like such a mess. I kept having terrible dreams about my wife, which I know to be symbolic of my soul.

Then one morning, I woke up and decided I was going to forgive. Just like that. I felt unburdened all of a sudden. I did what I so easily wrote about in “Let God and Let God” but couldn’t before do it.

What I didn’t realize was that all of my suffering was leading me to this point, even though I would say this, teach this, and intellectually understand this, I was EXPERIENCING THIS. You see, all of my heartache was creating something precious in me. And finally God was going to release me from the chains of my PAST and BIRTH the NEW ME.

Matthew 13:45
Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls

A PEARL is produced by the constant suffering, healing, suffering, healing, suffering of the OYSTER. And then to find the PEARL produced, there must be the ultimate death of that OYSTER (vessel carrying the PEARL)

Ever hear the term, PEARL OF WISDOM? Well that is the allegory here.
We are the OYSTER, the PEARL is the UNDERSTANDING/WISDOM within us, and that UNDERSTANDING grows, and grows, and grows, and becomes more PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE the more that Oyster (vessel = us) suffers.

Well it is all well and good to understand this, but another thing completely to DIE TO YOUR CARNAL MINDSET. The carnal Mindset (antichrist nature at work in man) is what causes us the pain and suffering. It accuses and condemns us constantly, we suffer and suffer and suffer… But once we DIE (To this CARNAL MAN/ADAM) and allow that PEARL to so shine before men, it no longer matters what we suffered, as it doesn’t matter to the one who finds the pearl, what the oyster had to go through so that man could become rich.

You see all that will matter is what has been RELEASED AND REVEALED from WITHIN us. And we will thank God for making it so.

Colossians 1:27
To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:

So the REVELATION finally hit me yesterday. And it came in the form of a simple thing we all do from time to time, I LOCKED MY KEYS IN MY CAR and was stuck.

I had no way of getting in to my jeep. I only had one key, no way of getting in touch of a locksmith etc… Well God showed me three amazing things from this experience. I was about to find that PEARL finally, I was about to see that I was SET FREE from everything that has tormented me before. Hell was cast into the lake of fire and destroyed, now all God had to do was show me.

Let me start by saying that OUR CIRCUMSTANCES all point to what is going on spiritually inside of us. Whether you want to believe it or not, whatever you are going through is happening FOR YOU not TO YOU, as my friend Dave Fields (Davefields.org) used to tell me.

Our circumstances are ALLEGORIES if you will, from where we work, to how messy or clean our home and yard is, to how our children act, etc… These are all PARABLES for us to learn from.

For example, a friend of mine, Scott, whom I love dearly, is having surgery to make his eye sight better, but he also recognized that God was bringing him into a deeper understanding of God’s truth. So, basically what was being bound and loosed in his life, was already bound and loosed in HIS SPIRIT.

I look at everything as a parable AND so should you, here’s why.

Romans 1:20
For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse:

So I prayed, Lord what am I to learn about this car thing? Well it wouldn’t be until the next day that I understood everything. However, God was showing me all I had been delivered from, all I had overcome in Christ, and that the future was mine to inherit… ALL FROM BEING LOCKED OUT OF MY OLD JEEP.

First of all, I didn’t know the KEYS were in my car. I thought I had either left them in the stores I went to, or that I threw them out in the huge garbage CONTAINER on the sidewalk of this huge outside mall I stopped by to get a sandwich, from one of the shops. Let’s just say ALOT OF PEOPLE walk that sidewalk.

So there I was in my sweats, rummaging through the outside garbage of this outside mall area. People passing and looking at me. They didn’t know I was looking for my keys. Who knows what was going through their minds? So I finally got to the bottom of this huge garbage can, and as I swished my fingers back and forth through the filthy water at the bottom of it, realizing my keys HAD TO BE IN MY CAR, something dawned on me… I didn’t care that for about fifteen minutes all of these people had passed me digging through the trash… I DIDN’T CARE WHAT THEY THOUGHT. So as I replaced the garbage back into its container, I smiled to myself and was amazed.

Usually I would be mortified as I did this task. I would have worried about what everyone thought of me, but NOPE! I did not care at all.

I knew what kind of person I was, I knew what my task was, and no one’s idea or perception of me was going to change that. So I walked away feeling a bit surprised by this new understanding.

And as I walked into a restaurant to wash my nasty, stinky hands, I thought back on all those that had wronged me. And I was surprised to find out, there was not one part of me that had ill toward them anymore. WHERE HAD IT ALL GONE? This one time co-dependent depressed meat-head was now walking with such security and strength. I thought of each individual and I saw why their attacks came. .. The lesson was, people’s opinion do not matter.

I always stated that in my many essays, “when people come against you it is their problem not yours”, but now I had EXPERIENTIAL WISDOM of this. NOW, I was walking in it! UNBELIEVEABLE, I thought.

But my ordeal over my keys locked in my car wasn’t over.

I knew the only way into my eleven year old Jeep Wrangler (another allegory of my nature, a wrangler of souls) was through the back plexi-glass window. I would have to smash my way in like the Hulk!

So as I was tearing this thick plastic window apart, I realized yet another thing. I was laughing to myself about how this must appear to others. I never once got upset that now I would have a broken rear window, I knew that I had no control, IT WAS WHAT IT WAS, and I was actually enjoying the moment. AMAZING, I thought once again.

So I BROKE THROUGH THE BACK climbed into the jeep got my keys. Went into a store, borrowed some packing tape and put it back together. Then drove off…

The lesson was everything that happens, happens for a reason and when you truly understand this you are free from the pain of that event and you can actually sort of enjoy it.

But the greatest of all lessons did not come until yesterday. I was walking toward my jeep, looking at my schlocky tape job and I finally had the REVELATION I had been waiting to have my entire life, yet didn’t know it.

I understood why GOD had me lock my keys in my car.

Our Cars are an allegorical representation of our LIVES, our JOURNEY, how we get from one place to another. God was showing me the KEY to moving from where I was to where God wanted me to be was TRAPPED INSIDE. And I was TRAPPED OUTSIDE. I had been living from the OUTSIDE and LOOKING IN for the KEY, as opposed to LIVING WITHIN and LOOKING OUT… the KEY represents the TRUTH that would help me in my life. That TRUTH is CHRIST. The Key would help me on the way of LIFE.

Matthew 16:19
And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.

You see what was happening in my conscious world/earth was bound and loosed from HEAVEN (the SPIRIT within) – Whatever happens to us, is a representation of what is spiritually happening to us.

So, I saw that the KEY = CHRIST(TRUTH) I needed to deliver me from being TRAPPED IN THIS COLD OUTSIDE HARSH WORLD, where people walk by and pass judgment on me, was the INSIDE ME… And there was only one way to get that KEY in the NATURAL WORLD and that was to BREAKTHROUGH THE BACK!

So I entered my jeep, and looked in my rearview window and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I HAD TO BREAK THROUGH what was BEHIND ME, I had to GET OVER AND BREAK THROUGH my PAST to FIND THE KEY that would help me MOVE FORWARD IN LIFE.

As I drove I continueD to look at the rearview mirror. What was once in my present, in my view, like A BURGER KING as I passed was now behind me… I thought, “While I drive I don’t keep dwelling on that Burger King I passed, because it is now in my PAST.”

So too, if I were to continue living in what I LIVED already, I wouldn’t be living at all would I?

The lesson learned is you have to BREAKTHROUGH your PAST EXPERIENCES and move beyond them, and dwell on them no more. And God showed me, God had, through much tribulation DELIVERED ME FROM IT ALL!

Acts 14:22
Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God.

No wonder I was light, unburdened, no wonder I could no longer hold unto the pain others have caused me, it no longer existed, the moment was gone, it was DEATH, and to exist in my PAST was to live in the SHADOW OF THAT DEATH!

Philippians 3:13
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before.

Now, look I know this has been a long essay and we are now half way there. But I want you to continue on, because there is a HUGE REVELATION at the end of this chapter that will blow your mind.

So the KEY is within, to get to that KEY we need to breakthrough what was once behind us, stop existing without and start driving from within. No longer looking at those things BEHIND YOU, but REACHING FORWARD to those things BEFORE YOU!

Now for the REMNANT that are hurting, hear this next part of this essay VERY CLEARLY.

There are many like me, scattered across the four winds (a fancy way of saying across the world) that have been hurt by the religious system, or at least by members of that system.

It is hard when you don’t you believe what those around you believe, harder still if you haven’t come to terms with the fact that everyone is where God wants them to be, and that “God makes everything BEAUTIFUL in ITS TIME”.

You may find yourself mocked, misunderstood by family or friends. You may share your faith with those so-called brothers and sisters in your congregation and soon find yourself called into your Pastor’s office and reprimanded. You may write articles like I have written and find those that once loved you, and embraced you, tell you how much worry they for your soul (Which is nice really, if you think about it, so long as you don’t that they believe you are lost, when you know you have been found)… They may quote Galatians “You foolish Galatians… who has bewitched you… and turned you away from the Gospel of truth.”

But here is another verse from Galatians I like to quote:

Galatians 4:16
Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth?

The truth is, if you have TRUTH, or are on your way to recieving the TRUTH, then PAIN WILL FOLLOW until understand what I now understand. And, it will hurt you terribly if you can’t move beyond what other people think of you, and can’t let go of what has happened. If you blame yourself, or if you try to fix things out of your carnal soulish nature, you will fail… IF YOU TRY TO SAVE YOUR LIFE as opposed to LOSING IT, you will hurt terribly, as I have hurt.

If you are anything like me, if you have any of the understanding I believe God has blessed me with, (which solely has come out of that which I suffered), then you may be hated, alienated or attacked. Whether at work for no seeming reason at all, at stores you may be mistreated by sales associates (LISTEN UP PC RICHARDS in STONYBROOK NY). You may be mistreated by neighbors, your children, your spouse, a waiter, a passer by, or even while driving your car you may be honked at by those who seem to hate you and you have done nothing wrong.

At times it may seem like the whole world is against you.

But I tell you, these are all FOR YOUR BENEFIT! To get you to understand what I explained above. It hurts, it pains you, you pray for those that are treating you so poorly, but if you ignorantly hang onto that pain CAUSED in the PAST like a WEIGHT AROUND YOUR NECK, you’ll NEVER be free from it!

There is a reason in the Lord’s prayer, we pray “FORGIVE US OUR SINS AS WE FORGIVE THOSE WHO HAVE SINNED AGAINST US” – We are asking God to forgive us, the way we forgive. And you see, FORGIVING means letting go, letting the past be the past, no longer bringing it up again, or dwelling on it. This is why we are warned…

Matthew 6:15
But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

You see, many MISUNDERSTOOD this… This simple scripture says “If you do not forgive others…”, you will be haunted by that very fact, THE FACT THAT YOU DIDN’T FORGIVE.

You will continue to suffer and God will not forgive you of that suffering UNTIL YOU DO.” – This scripture doesn’t mean, if you don’t forgive Bob or Helen for calling you a big jerk, that God won’t forgive you when you cheated at pinnacle last night… It means you won’t be forgiven of the ANGER YOU ARE CONDEMING YOURSELF WITH. You won’t be free from the animosity you hold against your brother or sister. YOU WON’T BE FREE YOU WILL BE A SLAVE TO WHAT HAS HAPPENED, INSTEAD OF BE FREE TO LIVE WHAT IS HAPPENING!

This brings us back to the simple and yet profound teaching, that we must LEAVE THE PAST and LIVE FOR THE PRESENT. Stop looking at what is behind, and start looking at the vision of what God has before you. For we all have a PROFOUND DESTINY AWAITING!

But even some of the most enlightened teachers out there are still burdened by this THORN (the cares of the world, what others think,)

Why, you ask? Because our CARNAL WORLDY NATURE wants acceptance and approval from those around us, we want everyone to like us, treat us with respect.

Galatians 1:10
Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

So, you may ask why so many seem to come against you? Well, it is because YOU are trying to win the world as opposed to realizing you have already inherited the Kingdom and need not WIN ANYTHING.

Matthew 16:26
For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

In other words, it doesn’t matter if the whole world loves you, the KEY is INSIDE, and your trapped outside in your own personal hell until you let the world of the past go, and the cares of others go, and stop trying to win people over.

The battle is already won, the Kingdom is here, and it is all yours IN CHRIST (the understanding of the TRUTH of WHO YOU ARE) – But to be FREE you need to GO INSIDE, get that KEY AND DRIVE, by BREAKING THROUGH AND FORGETTING what is behind you.

This is why we are told to REJOICE when trouble comes.

1 Peter 4:13
But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.

Our present suffering are TRULY NOTHING compared to what will be revealed in us later. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE JUST LEARNED!

What power, purpose, and peace is found in understanding that GOD IS IN CONTROL? Think about it. Why is it when you do good you say IT’S GOD, and when you mess up, you say MY FOUL! And why do you seldom rejoice in the good things done in your life, but you replay, regret, and continue to live in the pain of what “you believe” you have done wrong.

Did it ever occur to you, that YOUR GREAT FALL could have just been what God had needed to deliver the world? Jesus took on SIN to save, and so we SIN and through our salvation and redemption from it, others are saved.

Romans 8:18
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

Isaiah 40:5
And the glory of the LORD SHALL BE REVEALED, and all flesh shall see it together: for the mouth of the LORD hath spoken it.

You want to know why there are so many MEAT-HEADS attacking you, threatening your job security, your family, your sanity? … IT IS TO FREE YOU! It is to rid you of the nonsense belief that we need Mankind’s approval, or that our past mistakes still matter today… I DO NOT NEED MAN’S APPROVAL, do YOU? My past no longer exists, does yours?

Let me show you who I AM!

Acts 2:22
… a man approved of God among you by miracles and wonders and signs, which God did by him in the midst of you, as ye yourselves also know:

I really don’t care if you believe that or not. I once did. But your opinion of me, your perception of me, does not take away from who I AM in CHRIST (truth/spirit of God)!

We, who know the Truth, whose lives are NO LONGER HID IN CHRIST. We who have been called out of Babylon (Religious system which stinks to the heights of heaven) and the WORLD (Lusts of the flesh, eyes, and Pride) in to the highest of all callings, the CALLING OF FREEDOM IN CHRIST, this is WHO WE ARE, and this below is what we must do.

Luke 4:18
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,

I AM SET AT LIBERTY! FINALLY, FREE, FREE, AT LAST! And it is high time, you follow suit and BREAKTHROUGH!

Don’t you know that we are justified by our FAITH, and that IS THE understanding that our trouble works patience and experience, and finally gives us HOPE!

Romans 5
Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: 2By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; 4And patience, experience; and experience, hope: 5And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

You, who at the moment, were once like me. Scared, hurting, screaming to God, “WHY ARE SO MANY AGAINST ME?” “WHY DO I KEEP MESSING UP?”… You, who at the moment, were once like me, alone, sad, put down and alienated… You, who at the moment, were once like me, believing you had the truth and desperately wanted to share it with the world but were attacked for doing so for seeming no reason at all… LISTEN TO THESE WORDS!

6For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. 7If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? 8But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.

What does this tell you?

The carnal man sees THIS as unfair. That God is harsh to us because we want to know HIM. The carnal will see that God is up there punishing us for every wrong turn, for every misstep… and although there is some truth in that, THIS IS NOT A SCARY PASSAGE!


Since God Loves you and Receives you, He SAVES you, by correcting you. And, here is the best part… IF YOU ARE NOT BEING CHASTENED, if you are WITHOUT CHASTISMENT, then you are NOT GOD’S CHILD! You are still a child of the world, of the DEVIL… I’m about to reveal something about this spooky DEVIL I don’t believe anyone has ever shared before. But it blew my mind when I saw this, as I am sure it will with you.

But I digress, we need to stop looking at those who seem to be blessed, who seem to have everything going right for them, and we must SEE that WE ARE THE ONES, WE are the LIGHTS OF THE WORLD!

We are being prepared, being put on the right path, being SET FREE… AS I NOW AM… FREE!

This is why we are told to rejoice. And most importantly to…

Psalm 46:10
Be still, and know that I am God:

Once we stop worrying about what others think and say about us, once we stop living in our past pain and hurt and betrayal, once we stop wishing things could go smoothly, as it seems to go for others… Once we SEE our present suffering are a TREASURE and we understand that we should….

Philippians 1:6
Be confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
= UNTIL CHRIST IS FORMED IN YOU, not waiting for some God of Love to send his son to murder people that are ignorant of him. The only one that is destroyed is our EGO. OUR CARNAL NATURE IS KILLED!

Christ is the TRUTH, the ANTICHRIST is the LIE at work in the hearts of most today. Tricking people into believing they are in control, when God is. And when the TRUTH COMES it’s BRIGHTNESS OF ITS COMING destroys the DARK IGNORANCE of your CARNAL EGO that you have been living out of.

You are a prisoner TO YOUR PAST, AND WORLDY CARES, and man made church is not going to save you. GOD IS.

When we really believe this… We have no reason to Fear, worry, or be depressed. We will then know ALL THINGS ARE WORKING TOGETHER FOR OUR GOOD.

You know, for many years I used to joke about that expression, “REJOICE when you are persecuted, for CHRIST.”

Matthew 5:10
Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

But LOOK… this is why we are persecuted. It is for RIGHTEOUSNESS sake!… So we can be HOLY, BLAMELESS, AND WITHOUT SPOT. This is what the RELIGIOUS LIONS of the world do not understand. Today, they believe a simple confession of faith makes you such… But most don’t really want to know the TRUTH at all. They want to know man’s truth WHICH IS A LIE. God’s ways are above MAN’S, HIS WAYS ARE PAST FINDING OUT by CARNAL MAN.

So, this is why some don’t seem to have the troubles some of us have. (Like being attacked for our beliefs)

The reason is these have NOT yet been drawn by God. And the truth is those that are persecuting you, attacking you, coming against you, are the very SPIRITUAL RESISTANCE YOU NEED to become GOD STRONG….

For in our (soulish) WEAKNESS, God’s STRENGTH is PERFECTED.

And without all of these trials and tribulations that beset us, we would not feel so weak. HOWEVER, here is what most are missing and it is the most important of all lessons to learn… They have not yet had their EYES OPENED that TROUBLE is something we SHOULD rejoice over! And when we do it becomes a BLESSING and no longer a CURSE.

Like me laughing instead of cursing and getting angry that the keys were trapped inside the jeep. I KNEW THERE WAS A GOOD REASON. And look at all the GOOD that came out of it, the understanding, the wisdom, all from a simple act that God forced upon me.

Here is a hard truth for many to swallow. Everything that is happening in your life at the moment… HAS TO HAPPEN. You have heard the expression growing pains, well this is all for our GROWTH.

The man who touches the hot stove eventually learns he will get burned.

If we were to step back and see our circumstances as a hot stove, instead of continuing to try and put the flame out by ourselves, we would just to be STILL, we would no longer get burned and eventually the fire would run out of its gas.

Every trial comes to an end when the individual ceases to add fuel to it. This is how we can apply this to our waking life below.

At times we ignorantly feel that when we are wronged, lied about, persecuted against, that WE need to take action! I have been guilty of this as well, many, many times. And it only made my trial harder and more painful. I, like many of you, believed I needed to stand up for myself (Notice that last word, SELF/EGO) – we believe we need to fight for OUR SELF (ego). We ignorantly believe we need to clear our good name… But CHURCH (Those called out of stupidity) your name is no longer your own, you are given a new name and that is JESUS CHRIST. This name is above all other names (natures)… And it is only your PRIDE that keeps you trapped outside the Kingdom in your perpetual hell you suffer, thinking there is something you need to do. GROW UP!

John 8:54
Jesus answered, If I honour myself, my honour is nothing: it is my Father that honoureth me; of whom ye say, that he is your God:

1 Corinthians 4:4
For I know nothing by myself; yet am I not hereby justified: but he that judgeth me is the Lord.

It is our WANT/LUST to be right, that continues our fight! (Because deep down we are all so insecure, and we all feel like phonies and God forbid anyone finds that out.)

But CHURCH (Those Called out of INSECURITY)… this is all EGO/pride, it is the very spirit of ANTICHRIST in you keeping you bound, as it once kept me bound.

We worry too much what others think, we worry about our jobs, our family, our friends, we worry and worry and worry (Thorns = Cares of the World)… And WORRY is FEAR, and if God does not give us the SPIRIT OF FEAR. So, guess who is creating the suffering in your life? (Your Carnal/ignorant SELF)

Luke 17:33
Whosoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it.

If you keep FIGHTING to hang onto the PITIFUL life you have now, because lets be real, if you are suffering and you are scared, as I have been, then a PITIFUL PERSON YOU ARE.

The one without understanding who has the seed of the gospel taken root and growing in their heart WILL be under attack, yet this is but the beginning, and the END is to be BORN AGAIN.

John 15:20
Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.

How many of you right now, feel sorry for yourself… There is that word (SELF) again. Well, that in a nutshell is why you feel SORRY, because the LIFE that is under attack is NOT LIFE AT ALL, BUT it is YOUR DEATH!

YOU ARE DEAD (IGNORANT) IN ADAM, regardless of how many times a man has dunked you in water, regardless of how many altar calls you have made, regardless of how many times you have said LORD LORD…

Matthew 16:24
Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.


And, God has sent these enemies to YOU to BREAK YOU, so you too can BREAKTHROUGH and grab those KEYS TO THE KINGDOM and be set at Liberty AND DRIVE AHEAD.

Matthew 21:44
And whosoever shall fall on this stone shall be broken: but on whomsoever it shall fall, it will grind him to powder.

Either way, the good news is, WE ALL WILL BE BROKEN so we ALL CAN ENTER INTO THIS REST. The quickest and best way for us to wake up out of a NIGHTMARE is for the Nightmare to become so HORRIBLE it SCARES US AWAKE! — People, this is the WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN!

We have been asleep, and God is using every single one of our experiences to WAKE US UP! And it only gets worse, until you do. So when you are CALLED, as I have been CALLED, when God’s alarm clock goes off, storms WILL FOLLOW… But after the storm there is a calm, and you will HEAR GOD SPEAK.

Matthew 17:5
While he yet spake, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them: and behold a voice out of the cloud, which said, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased; hear ye him.

After our time of TESTING, we enter into a GLORIOUS REST! And what is REST? What is that SABBATH REST that everyone talks about? … It is when you CEASE TO RELY ON YOUR EGO’S WIT. You no longer put on the Flesh of your older carnal nature “Esau” to trick your Father into giving you the BLESSING and INHERITANCE that God has already PREORDAINDED TO BE YOURS!

That is the hilarity of it all, the KINGDOM IS OURS, and there is nothing we need to do but accept this TRUTH (CHRIST) and believe it!

But the enemy our adversary (the devil) – who I will tell you plainly is WHO YOU THOUGHT (Past tense) YOU WERE, IF YOU DO NOT SEE YOURSELF AS GODS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON!

1 Peter 5:8
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

Everyone hears the word DEVIL and gets all FREAKED out… But here is an AMAZING REVELATION if you have EYES AND EARS TO HEAR AND SEE IT…

I’m sure many of you have noticed how strange it is the (EVIL is LIVE) spelled backwards and vice versa.

But let me show you who the TRUE ENEMY is… using the same system.

DEVIL spelled backwards is LIVED.

You see the whole world of LUST operates out of their PAST. They hold onto to their pain, bitterness, the life they have LIVED becomes the VERY EGO/ DEVIL that holds them back from moving forward into the KINGDOM.

The first man is formed from the experiences/lies/traditions/etc that he LEARNED as he LIVED his life… AND man began to SEE himself as an EGO, A creation living not in the moment, but existing out of the PAST.

Yet, the PAST does not exist, those moments are DEAD… This is why the ignorant man is DEAD IN HIS SINS (ignorance).

The DUST of the earth is not a good thing… It is DEAD FLESH (carnal thinking) and this is what the DEVIL EATS!!!!!! As we go about our lives we hold onto our past, we relive our past, we EAT IT ALL UP!

We ARE ADDICTED to the things we SUFFERED, even though we would never admit to it… But telling the world how hard your LIFE HAS BEEN (past) and how terrible THINGS WERE (past), is an addiction to us. EVERYONE LOVES TO GOSSIP ABOUT WHAT HAS BEEN DONE.

Few want to let go of the past, this is why so many are still angry at relatives… hint, hint, any relative of mine reading this right now… I love you, now love your life, don’t complain about what you LIVED.

MOST scream out loud about how unfair LIFE HAS BEEN… Meanwhile, that is the life that had already been (LIVED – DEVIL) so your life that has been LIVED is the very DEVIL that is continuing to accuse you and condemn you.

Revelation 12:10
And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night.

When we PUT THE PAST BEHIND US… When we no longer listen, dwell, and live out of the DEATH of our PAST EXPERIENCES… WHEN we no longer allow the life we LIVED-DEVIL to ACCUSE US and we cast this spirit (PAST THOUGHTS) out, then is come salvation!

This whole revelation hit me BECAUSE, as I STATED I have been under attack from so many, family, friends, a new boss, etc etc… lies and accusation leveled against me… I HEARD (PAST TENSE) about these things and couldn’t let go… I was walking in the SHADOW OF DEATH as opposed to the NEWNESS OF LIFE… I was listening to what had already been (LIVED-DEVIL) instead of focusing on LIFE which is CHRIST AND TRUTH.

What I (LIVED – DEVIL) was my Father and I was it’s child. A child of PAST IGNORANCE. Instead of being the CHILD OF GOD I AM NOW!

These were great judgments against me, great chastening to bring me out of the life that I LIVED so I could begin to LIVE IN THE MOMENT!

We need to learn to keep the PAST, BEHIND US! As we do with those things we pass along the road as we drive.

We can continue to look into the rear view mirror and see what we had already LIVED, we can keep our eyes focused on that rear view mirror on what is behind us and forget about what is before us, and what happens? … WE CRASH AND DIE!

That is your real enemy, the life and suffering you have (LIVED- DEVIL). And it is time to put it, and keep it, BEHIND US!

Luke 4:8
And Jesus answered and said unto him, Get thee BEHIND ME, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve.

Put the pain and suffering and hurt of others from the PAST BEHIND YOU… Really look at this passage… SATAN only cares about the things of MANKIND, and CARNAL MANKIND only cares about worshipping, and suffering, in the LIFE they have already LIVED. That is why they continue on in dead works and dead traditions of men.

Every company, gives you a review of your PAST ACHIEVEMENTS. The whole world system is set up to keep you in the HELL of your PAST as opposed to walking free from your past sins, and LIVING IN PEACE AND JOY of the NOW!

You want freedom? you want to no longer suffer? You want to enter the KINGDOM OF GOD? (which is RIGHTEOUSNESS, PEACE, AND JOY)…

Then YOU need to finally accept that what is happening in your life is there to teach you to LET GO, and no longer allow the DEVIL (the Life you LIVED) to rule over you.

Want to have a marriage that works? Stop living in the past.

Want to enjoy your job? Stop thinking on the things in the past that suck about your job.

Want to be a better parent? Stop looking at what your children have done, and look at what they are doing.

Want to love your life? Then LOSE the LIFE YOU LIVED! And you will save it.

WANT TO BE FREE? … ALLOW the trouble in your life to get you to the place, where you can break through what has already been, and move into what is going to be.

Hebrews 6:1
Therefore leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection; not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works, and of faith toward God,

READ THAT SCRIPTURE and focus on the line… NOT LAYING AGAIN THE FOUNDATION OF REPENTANCE FROM DEAD WORKS! – let me open your eyes to what this means CHURCH….

You MADE A MISTAKE IN THE LIFE YOU LIVED, you said SORRY, but you DON’T LET IT GO… You allow the DEVIL (the LIFE YOU LIVED) to continue to accuse you, to torment you, and this is why you have no freedom.

You are all slaves to YOUR PAST. You are all DEAD because those moments no longer exist, there is no life in what is GONE, there is ONLY LIFE IS WHAT IS!

Jesus when asked, did not say “I WAS” he didn’t live in the past… Jesus said “I AM”

This is YOUR WAY OUT, this is Your Key, this is FREEDOM INDEED!


Peace to you and yours,