BELIEVE AND RECEIVE
About ten years ago, I was going through many things emotionally, physically, spiritually, etc. It was an especially hard time in my life, but also a very wonderful time where I learned so much about myself and others. I learned that you can never repay hate with hate unless you want more hate in return. I learned that you can only overcome the evil others wish to bring into your life by wishing good in theirs and doing good to those who do not do the same for you.
I learned to be grateful for what I had, even though I had lost so much, I lost my home, the new car, the furniture, my wife left me and on top of it all I was sick. During that time I had so little control over anything. All I could do was hold unto my faith that one day my children would be in my fulltime care away from the danger of my ex-wife’s convicted felon, addicted, steroid using and child abusing boyfriend, who she moved into my home while he was on house arrest within two weeks of me moving into a really small apartment. It was a terrible time and I knew my children were in danger, but I had no money, I was barely getting by to begin with so how could I possibly get my children? The answer was, faith.
Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done
I had done nothing wrong in my first marriage, although I am sure I wasn’t perfect, I knew I was better than most. I was a devote husband, a great father, never cheated, never flirted, did housework, made a great living, supported my ex in all things, I dotted all the I’s and crossed all the T’s, but my ex was just never in love with me. She had told me that it wasn’t me, it was her. The old line didn’t really play so well for me after almost seven years of marriage, a four-year old and a newborn. The first thing that didn’t make any sense was I had always been told God hated divorce. Even though I would learn the only DIVORCE God hates is when “we” divorce ourselves from God and ignorantly believe we are OUR EGO and that OUR EGO is in control. When in fact, who we truly are is beyond what any preachers, priest, rabbi, or guru has told you. We are everything and this is why we must project unto the world and others what we want returned.
“God is not mocked whatever a man sows he shall also reap.”
So there I was alone, broke, in and out of the hospital with my Crohns disease, my children around about the worst human being for them. I don’t want to get into details but imagine the worst person to be around children and that was my ex’s boyfriend who was also fifteen years her junior.
But instead of allowing anger, hatred and worse to grow within me, I began to pray for both of them. Don’t get me wrong there were many times that I wanted to hurt the sick young man who my ex was with, but hurting him and hurting her would never bring me peace. You don’t find peace at the expense of others, you find peace by doing what is right in God’s eyes. You only find peace by truly loving yourself and others, and that means your “enemies” as well. Because if truth by told if you don’t love who you percieve as an enemy, you don’t love yourself.
But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you
The reason we MUST love those we percieve as enemies, is because they are there for us to learn. In fact, we created them to begin with. We judged these people to be who we “feared” they were and they became exactly that. I know this is a tough pill to swallow but it does not mean it is not truth. If we judge a certain way, we will be judged by how we first judged. In other words, you get what you put out people. This is Jesus’ teachings is about the best advice in the world. A majority of Jesus’ teachings dealt with sowing and reaping, forgiving, and never taking revenge. The reason is a spiritual law that is at work in the world today. You will only receive what you first put out. You can’t get lettuce without first planting it, the nurturing it and allowing it to grow. The same is true for peace, you will never have peace in your life if you sow hate, anger, and revenge. You recieve what you first believe and set your heart to accomplish.
Back then my hands were really tied. Even though I knew what was going on in my old home I had no proof besides the terrible diaper rashes, bruises, and what my son would tell me. None of which held any weight because of his age. And all of the physical proof could be explained away, even though I knew the excuses were not true. Whether my ex knew about this or not I could not say, I hope for her own peace of mind she didn’t know. One time CPS was called on them, when I found out I was overjoyed but the investigation went nowhere, the agent never followed anything up and the person who called never came forward. It was a devastating time in my life, I felt so helpless. It was one thing to deal with sickness, heartache, and abuse when it was happening to me, but when it was happening to my children it was a very different and terrible hell. It also makes it very hard to trust that God has it all worked out and everything that is happening is happening for a very good reason. Nevertheless, I pressed on and soon I would find out how important this time was for me.
I knew that the only way I could protect my children, get my life back on track, and get healthy again was to start by being healthy within. So I set my sights on my goal, I pictured my children with me, I pictured myself in a new home, and of course I pictured my ex and her boyfriend, turned husband divorced quickly and both would get their lives in order, and more importantly the new husband would be out of my children’s lives for good.
You see, I couldn’t do more than I was doing. Short of kidnapping my children and moving out of the country my hands were tied. So I simply hung onto hope, I turned to God like never before. I spoke to many people about the faith I had, telling them within a short period of time I would have custody of my children, a new home, and more. I prayed for my ex and her new husband, but more importantly I cried out to God saying, “I can’t take this anymore, I can’t do this anymore, help me!” I was desperate. And then one day the call came.
The new husband was caught with his pants down, literally, the only problem was it happened to take place in front of my one year old daughter.
You see even though my circumstances seemed hopeless, God was bigger tha my circumstances and more importantly I firmly believe he was always in control of them, teaching me to stop putting my trust in mankind and myself but to trust that when I believe I will receive. I conditioned myself to only see good coming out of it all. I even had dreams about some big secret that would be revealed, I had dreams I would soon have custody of my kids even though there was no earthly reason for this to happen, considering we just got divorced six months prior.
You see I have long been a believer that if you do the right thing you will reap good things in return. If you do the wrong thing eventually you have to pay for what you have done. This kept me going, I knew eventually whatever was being done privately would be revealed.
What you have said in the dark will be heard in the daylight, and what you have whispered in the ear in the inner rooms will be proclaimed from the roofs.
We do indeed reap what we sow. I wrote once about God’s judgment. You see the OLD WAY of looking at things was an “eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth”. Then Jesus came on the scene and cleared that up.
The problem was people believed THEY were the ones that had the right to excercise the judgment. That was their mistake. They thought if someone hurt them, you could hurt them back. The problem with this is, if you do the same thing to someone who hurt you then you are no better. If someone first tears you down and gossips about you and then you gossip about how bad they are and in return tear them down, you are as guilty.
Here is what people don’t understand, the “eye for an eye” law is indeed a spiritual law. The problem is mankind does NOT have the right to execute it. God will make what is wrong right. It is NOT up to us.
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.
Here is the reason, these terrible things that happen to us are happening for us. And if I did not practice what many men and women of God before me preached, which is love, hope, and forgiveness, then my children wouldn’t be where they are today and nor would I.
Judgment is NEVER ours. Judgment is God’s. When we judge others and we stand in judgment and try to exercise judgment on others, we will get what we judged in return. Like thinking the worst in someone before they treat you bad, it is a good call whatever you believed about them they will become. This is why it was so important for me back then to see those that were hurting me and my children in a better light and trust that God would make things right. If their hearts wouldn’t change, then custody and my circumstances would.
And I did indeed receive what I believed.
To make a long story short, without a penny in the bank I would get custody of my children, I would move into my new home, my ex and her new husband would soon divorce and he would never be seen again. I would meet my true love, my new son (her son, my step son), we would be blessed by the home we have today, and we would have my baby boy Ethan who truly is a light in my life.
It wasn’t hate that brought me the life I am living today, it was faith, forgiveness and a conscious decision to think only on the good and to BELIEVE.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things
Now I wanted to share all of this to remind you that even when things seem the most hopeless and you are at your most helpless, there is always hope! BUT YOU HAVE TO HAVE FAITH! With Faith everything is possible!
…If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you
Now when asked about all of this, the question could be, “Do you wish things were different?” The question could always be answered, “of course”. No one wants to see their children suffer, no one wants to struggle or be tempted to hate another, to see a family break apart, etc. However the truth is, today I love where I am and without all the manure heaped on top of my life at that point the flowers of faith that blossomed out of it would never be enjoyed. My children are strong, happy, and healthy, my wife is my rock, my step son is like my own flesh and blood, and my baby Ethan is an angel sent from God. We are a happy family and I would never trade what I have today for a better yesterday.
I thank God for it all. During that time I learned so much. There is something very revealing spiritually about losing everything you thought SEEMS TO matter in the world, to help you realize you lost nothing and gained EVERYTHING.
29 And he said unto them, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or parents, or brethren, or wife, or children, for the kingdom of God’s sake, 30 Who shall not receive manifold more in this present time, and in the world to come life everlasting.
Well that was what this period of my life was. It was a time of enlightening and enduring, to be honest it hasn’t really stopped. I don’t think my awakening began when I first went to a church, but when I went through my most difficult trial. I had to learn that not only is God in control of my life but God is in control of my children’s life. That doesn’t mean you sit back and watch life pass you by without doing anything, it means you ONLY operate within the parameters of love.
You do not harm, you forgive, you continue to hold onto hope even when it seems all hope is lost. Because eventually you will reap what you have sown. This is why we must never give up hope. We must always speak our ideals into existence and believe that God and a rewarded of those who diligently seek him.
But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him
Not only is it impossible to please God without faith, without faith it is impossible to please anyone and more importantly to be pleased yourself.
When people come against us, when circumstances are hard and beyond our control, DON’T GIVE UP! We need to never lose hope, we need let others know of the hope we have. We need to speak this faith out loud not just so others can hear it’s declaration but so we can HEAR IT OURSELVES!
So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God
This means we should only speak what is true, because we can only really ever hear what is true. And this is truth, God has only good thoughts for you. He does not give us the spirit of fear.
2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind
That means whatever you are going through every thought that has you worried, ashamed, or feeling hopeless, these thoughts are NOT from God. And if they aren’t from God they aren’t true. Stop saying you are a loser, that you are hopeless, that your circumstances will never turn around. What we believe we receive so stop believing lies and allowing them into your life. Instead, endure, hang on to hope and tell the world that good things are coming, because that is the life God wants us all to live.
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This morning I started reading First John in the New Testament and felt like sharing a couple of things with you all. I mainly want to show you how I “see” (perceive) scripture, and how I come to say and write the things I say and write.
You see when I read scripture sometimes things pop out at me, certain words, over the years, I have come to know are allegorical of certain things… For example “Light” is symbolic of “TRUTH/GOD/WISDOM” -Jesus said, “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Light”.
Sanctify them through thy truth: thy WORD is truth.
Through connecting a lot of dots you begin to find more. When you want to know what a certain passage means, or what to find the symbolism and the spiritual meaning behind it all you need to do is find a witness of it in scripture. BUT FIRST, I guarantee something inside you will give you a hint. You’ll find yourself thinking “I bet the Virgins Lamps, in the parable of the Virgins, was actually the WORD/LOGOS/LOGIC/WISDOM of God.” — You will deduce this because you will remember another passage where the WORD of God is compared to a Lamp, or a light to your feet.
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path
Now when you get that. You understand, anything that produces LIGHT, whether it is the Sun, A Lamp, A Candle, etc… is all symbolism for the TRUTH/WISDOM/UNDERSTANDING/LOGIC of God. Which is why we are to let our LIGHT shine.
Many people come into greater understanding, but are still in religious organizations that would frown on such insight. So for many, they bottle it up, they keep that LIGHT hidden away, because of fear. Which, we know God doesn’t give us the spirit(thoughts) of.
No man, when he hath lighted a candle, covereth it with a vessel, or putteth it under a bed; but setteth it on a candlestick, that they which enter in may see the light.
No, we are to SO LET THIS LIGHT SHINE! So those who are desiring to ENTER INTO THE KINGDOM (reign) of GOD…. CAN! You see, we in effect are a candle, we are a lamp, God provides the FIRE that ignites us so the whole world can know the TRUTH.
For thou wilt light my candle: the LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.
Proverbs 20, says the Spirit (Thoughts) of Man, IS the CANDLE.
So if the “LIGHT” or anything that emanates “LIGHT” is a symbol for God’s Wisdom, Power, and Truth (Christ)… Then when do you believe Darkness to be? …. That’s right, IGNORANCE. I’ll use another word HELL.
The way of the wicked is as darkness: they KNOW NOT at what they stumble
2 Peter 2:4
For if God spared not the messengers that sinned, but cast them down to hell, and delivered them into chains of darkness
When many read this passage, they think of infinite burning and torture. But what really is being said here is that, God’s doesn’t even spare his messengers from the depths of ignorance (hell), and even his messengers are delivered into chains (the bondage of) darkness (ignorance).
When you walk in Darkness, you don’t know which way to go, where you are going, and what path you are on. In darkness, you don’t know much, beside the darkness you are in. But a lit Candle will help show you some of the way. And the FULL SUN will show you the whole picture, you won’t stumble, you’ll be able to walk and you will know everything that you did not “perceive/see” when you were in darkness.
The wise man’s eyes are in his head; but the fool walketh in darkness: and I myself perceived also that one event happeneth to them all.
By now, you should be able to understand the meaning of darkness in Solomon’s rant of the vanity of this temporal world and the cares thereof.
A Wise man = One who understands the Truth of God, has EYES (perception) in his HEAD (thinking)… But the FOOL (those that don’t know God “the fool in his heart says there is no God) walks (exists) in Darkness (Ignorance)
GET IT? Good… moving on.
So this is what I am about to do with 1st John 1. I am going to go through line by line and basically interpret it as a symbolist would. And yes that is a word, look it up. Symbology is the study and use of symbols to find meaning. That is what we MUST do to find the SPIRIT of the scriptures. The good news is, we can’t force it, the Holy Spirit within us, “Our True Life”, gives us the answers little by little.
This is symbolically shown as Christ coming like Lightning from heaven. In the dark of night it is hard to see, but LIGHTNING for an instant shows you the whole picture when it illuminates the area. At that moment you can only pick up a couple of things in your surroundings, but NOW you know they are there. This is the same way revelation works. A bit here, a bit there, until, the day-star Rises in your heart, and you are no longer walking in darkness.
It’s easy to read scriptures that talk about Jesus Christ, and picture that tall man, 6′ with a beard, handsome, kind, and a guy who flies into a rage when he see things done against the will of God. Like when he turned over the tables, or called the religious leaders of the time a “generation of vipers”.
Unfortunately, many Christians do not see that these words, as demeaning as they sound, as ALLEGORIES. These word recorded do not show the heart of love, which is understanding where people are at. For example when my child acts out, and doesn’t behave, I don’t say “you are of your father the devil”, or call them “terrible brats”… I correct them, and tell them that is NOT WHO THEY ARE. This is the heart of love.
Too many Christians today have taken these allegorical words to heart, and now feel that they are justified to call others, vipers, evil, demonic, satanic, etc… I get my share of that.
But when you understand that symbols. And you begin to understand that the TEMPLE that had the tables that needed to be overthrown was YOUR HEART/MIND, and that the Religious Leaders condemned that were ruling the Temple, were the very same false teachings that you have clung to for so many years, you begin to understand why Jesus said “TEAR DOWN THIS TEMPLE” and I will rebuild it in THREE DAYS (symbolical of a trimester for birth) – Jesus was speaking of HIS BODY, we know this in scripture. But few care to SEE (perceive/understand) that WE HUMANS are the BODY OF CHRIST, whose first nature (Adam/old man) needs to be torn down, so the New Man, Second Adam (Man) can rule.
So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another.
THIS IS THE BODY OF CHRIST, this is the TEMPLE OF GOD, EVERY ONE A MEMBER OF ONE ANOTHER. MEANING PEOPLE WE ARE ALL ONE!
The problem is, WITHIN US, there is a lot of nonsense going on. Religion has turned our hearts and minds into something that can be purchased or stolen.
Saying unto them, It is written, My house is the house of prayer: but ye have made it a den of thieves
We are the HOUSE. And religious false teaching, man’s lust for power and control, has turned our hearts into a place where peace, wisdom, hope, and freedom can be stolen.
So what does it mean to be the HOUSE OF GOD? Simply put, we are the VESSEL in which God exists. This is why God is Called the Lord of Hosts. Look up the word Host in the dictionary. A Host is a living entity whose purpose is to house and give life to another living entity. I hate to use the word parasite, but we are a host for parasites as well… A wonderful allegory of how we allow people who are ignorant to God’s truth, to suck us dry, and steal our strength and health. Yes Religious leaders who spew lies from their pulpits if we ingest and believe them, the lies of the religious ignorant leaders become parasites of sorts… but the TRUTH of God will always trump. Even though for some, they walk in darkness, GOD IS THERE!
For many God is hiding away in their ignorance (Darkness) – David understood this well, when he stated if he made his bed in HELL (ignorance) God was there.
He made darkness his secret place; his pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies
Yes, ignorance is part of God’s plan. Without the Dark we would never know the Light. Without the Light we would never know the Dark. It’s all about God’s Truth and Man’s lies.
You see this is why we can never just take things at face value. We must LOOK to the heart of scripture, as God looks to the heart of Mankind. If we simply take things at face value, we will make the same mistake of those who think it’s okay to tear down, mock, and attack people who “see” things differently than they do. If we don’t understand the parable we will do as we see in some countries where thieves hands are cut off, or adulterers are stoned to death… never once seeing that a “hand” is symbolic of authority… and it is the authority of the thief that must be cut off, and the stone is the Truth which should put to death the false spirit (thoughts) and false worship (which really is what an adulterer is) – Not what we know an adulterer to be but what God is speaking of. Which is Mankind leaving the union of His Spirit and understanding of his Truth for FALSE GODS.
How shall I pardon thee for this? thy children have forsaken me, and sworn by them that are no gods: when I had fed them to the full, they then committed adultery, and assembled themselves by troops in the harlots’ houses
Here we see clearly, but you can look elsewhere, that God is talking about how people have forsaken the TRUTH and gone after false gods, by doing this THEY COMMITTED ADULTERY… We also see that a HARLOTS HOUSE is symbolic of a place where lies are taught.
This should be a great comfort for those who are divorced, because truly, this is the ONLY DIVORCE GOD HATES… When we leave the light for darkness. The good news is….
11 I say then, Have they stumbled that they should fall? God forbid: but rather through their fall salvation is come unto the Gentiles, for to provoke them to jealousy.
You see ultimately, God is in control of it all. He makes Light and he makes the Darkness.
I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things
I suppose the thing that I hope you take away from this paper is, the most important thing in the world is not outside of you, behind you, or coming to you in the future. The most important thing is IN YOU! It is a mystery that is for sure. But here are some keys for you to unlock some doors. Find the meaning of things you don’t understand.
When you read about Paul being Blind and SCALES falling from his eyes. Don’t take that literally, go to scripture and search the word SCALES out, and find out what was keeping PAUL BLIND (ignorant) and you will find a great truth…
His SCALES are his PRIDE, shut up together as with a close seal
It is our foolish pride that keeps us blind to the truth. But the LIGHT will SHINE, and when it does, darkness flees from it.
This is OUR STORY everyone. Every story, every parable, from Adam and Eve, to Joseph and Mary, it’s all about us. GOD’S ONLY CHILD HUMANITY!
And in the DARK OF NIGHT – in our Ignorance he leads us by FIRE (what we suffer). And in the Daylight it is a CLOUD (the witness and truth of God)… either way, God is LEADING US and WE CANNOT FAIL.
But God led the people about, through the way of the wilderness of the Red sea: and the children of Israel went up harnessed out of the land of Egypt.
As God led the people out of their bondage, through the way of the wilderness of the Red Sea, he will lead us out of our bondage through the wilderness of this thing here called our life and the cares of this world, because like the children of Israel, we are HARNESSED, and God is DRAGGING us where we need to go. So don’t condemn others who are different, don’t draw your sword (words) to kill those who threaten CHRIST (the Truth within you revealed to you) because those that live this way, will die this way. Debate is foolish it leads nowhere, you don’t need to protect the Gospel, the Gospel cannot fail. You don’t need to do, as I have done in the past and point out the ignorance and lies of many, for their ignorance and lies will be revealed without any of us having to take up our sword (words) and cut them with them.
Above all else, LOVE GOD, LOVE OTHERS, which means LOVE YOUR ENEMIES, DO GOOD TO THOSE THAT HURT YOU… Don’t go calling them serpents, devils, or whatever other allegory that was written to help us see the bigger picture. Perfect Love doesn’t condemn, hate, and it casts out all fear, it cannot be offended and doesn’t need to be defended, so LOVE PEOPLE, LOVE! Because God is not mocked, whatever a man sows that they shall also reap. SO SOW LOVE! TRADE YOUR SWORD FOR KEYS! And unlock the mysteries that have been hidden for ages and ages, but is now being revealed. 🙂
I hope you enjoyed this paper, didn’t have a clue as to what to write, just felt like writing and I went for it. Much love to you all, Jacob
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